Golden Heart Diaries: The Great Agent Search
Song of the Day: Crawling in the Dark by Hoobastank

With a title like Golden Heart® finalist, I began to realize something magical had happened. People started to take notice of me. Now those of you who personally know me are probably rolling their eyes and thinking “Phssh, well duh. Kinda hard NOT to notice Miss Brassy Pants.” Yet, I have been amazed and humbled by people’s reaction to my newfound accomplishment.
Some of the attention may have been overlooked had it not been for a few special friends of mine I like to dub my Horn Tooters. Everywhere I go, the wind section of these pals blow shiny horns, announcing my final and subsequent requests. After the rousing musical introduction, flags are raised, flowers are thrown and I am expected to do my very best Queen of England hand wave to the adoring crowd. Bless my merry band of Horn Tooters.
Once the delirious fog of my pirate historical Upon a Moonlit Sea actually making it in the finals lifted, I set to work to capitalize on the Golden Heart® name. I generated a new query and promptly sent it out to ten acquiring agents and sent follow-up emails to those who had my manuscript fermenting in their slush piles. Some of these agents had already sent their beloved, unsigned standard rejection letters. But, hey, why not give them a second chance at greatness, right?

The response blew me away. Eight of the ten asked for a partial or full – one within TEN minutes of me pushing the send button. Imagine, if you will, my giddy excitement; the falling to my knees, the tears of joy, the shameless bowing to my ornate agent shrine. Perhaps giddy isn’t the right word.
Now, this is where an old eighties rock tune pops into my head. “Sometimes high, sometimes low, easy come, easy go.” That sound you hear is the escaping air from my high flying balloon. I have received almost as many rejections as requests, deflating my ego at an alarming rate. Feelings of inadequacies burrowed deep and no amount of horn tooting or elegant hand waving would help. I confirmed that Moonlit Sea wasn’t at its best. Nausea had set it.
So why did I only send out ten queries? Surely the more agents I send to the better chance I’ll have of landing one. The proverbial iron is hot, after all. I should be hitting up every agent in the known world and beyond. The short answer is that I was scared. I hadn’t read my manuscript since last summer and I have come light years as a writer from where I was those months ago. Moonlit Sea needed a good buff and I knew it.
I didn’t want to send it out to anyone else until that sucker shined. But I fashioned a self-imposed deadline that I had to meet. I wanted, no, I NEEDED to finish my second pirate historical, A Kiss in the Wind, before I could move on. There were only a few chapters left. No way could I abandon the story, even for a month. My salty main characters would probably string me up on the gallows. Arghh.
I’m happy to report, I’ve met my goal and I’m done. Now, I am feverishly working to blind agents with Moonlit Sea with crisper authenticity and
tighter phrasing. Though there is some head slapping at the little mistakes I’ve come across, the nausea is starting to abate. Bring me my Horn Tooters!
Yes, there is a smidgen of regret for sending out my manuscript so soon to those agents. With the story not at 100%, I can understand receiving the rejections. However, I’m reminded that if I didn’t have a great story, I wouldn’t be a finalist. Before long, I’ll be flooding the agent market again, hopefully with equally exciting results.
There has been a lot of success from other Golden Heart® finalists finding great agents. Congratulations to them all! With any luck, I’ll join that bandwagon soon. I believe in my pirates. I believe in my story. And the iron is still hot.

In my next installment of the Golden Heart® Diaries, I’ll prattle on about preparing to wow DC, dress anxiety, and any new agent developments.